LETS GO

I'm bacccccccccck!! lol I'm sure none of you missed my blog posts but it's cool. A lot has gone on since I've been gone so this post will just be a recap.
To start off I've grown a lot lately, spiritually and physically(?), [I didn't just want to write spiritually lol]. Mostly spiritually though. My relationship with God has grown tremendously. I now feel on fire for God and His love and I don't care who sees or knows. Before I didn't really feel like I was on fire for His love. The kind of fire that I would see in other kids at Rev143 was something I desperately wanted but I just didn't know how to obtain it. I would get to the point where I would feel so down when I got to Rev because I wanted so badly to be like those who I saw had that fire. Needless to say I was jealous. Recently I did a week fast from technology and social media, and from that I was able to learn so much about myself (seven different levels...yea I know kinda weird but hey that's what God gave me). After this fast I, and a lot of other people, have seen this huge growth, and I'm so excited. I love it when God answers pray. (I mean, who doesn't?)
Because of this growth, I was able to get something else from God that I thought I would never get: I'm ready for a relationship. I made this promise to myself, which God never made me break (the reason why my last two 'experiences' didn't work out). The promise was that I never wanted to be in a relationship if I was still dealing with my struggle because I cared to much about the other person, whoever they might be, to hurt them. I had rushed to get into a relationship twice before, even though I knew I wasn't ready, but God wasn't going to let me break my promise so they both didn't work out. At the time I was really upset, but looking back on it now I'm glad God was able to stop me from doing something incredibly stupid.
Now that I've grown more God told me, while I was doing "quiet time" (that's in quotes because it was really the couple minutes of me laying in bed before I knocked out lol), that I was ready to go that extra step and have a relationship. Now you would think that I would be extremely excited but I wasn't all that much because I didn't want to go through relationship drama. So I've decided to give all that to God. I want Him to be in charge of my steps relationship-wise. So for now I'm just focusing on having DOPE friendships and if God wants anything to go further He'll make it so, if not then I'm not going to sweat it. This is probably one of the best decisions I've made because there's so less drama involved and it's great. (Anyone reading this should take notes....lol)
In terms of style, I feel like I'm maturing. With college right around the corner, I've decided to be a little more sophisticated and grown-up this school year, again style wise. I've even starting reading a "grown-up" magazine, GQ. (insert jokes here __________) but I don't care I like that magazine. Hey maybe I could write for it one day. That would be great. (You listening Jesus?)
Speaking of college, I've been confused.....until I prayed. I got that I should look into Gordon, so I did and I loved it. I really feel that it's for me. I really want to stay in God's presence, and here I would be able to do that. Abroad studies and missions? Sign me up. I pray that I will receive the scholarship and I hope you guys will pray for me too. Don't worry I'll return the favor. :)
My life's been looking up lately and I just really pray that everything will continue to look up. I love God with ALL MY HEART and I look forward to what he has for me in the future. Until next time,

Stay Awesomesauce.
PS enjoy the song.....I've been obsessed with her lately.

WOW.....

...Haven't blogged in awhile :(