Kid Heave.

Thaaaaaaaat's Meeeeeeeee!(In Amanda Bynes voice)
If I've never said it before, I'll say it now. I am a dancer. I never really felt comfortable identifying myself as a dancer before because, well, I thought I sucked. I honestly didn't feel that it was fair to the world of dance if I identified myself as a legitimate dancer. However, as I continued to participate in dance at church I got more confident. So confident in fact that I now feel more comfortable saying I AM A DANCER! Lol
So now that step one is over, it's time for me to move on to step two; getting trained. Now I could continue to train just in contemporary, but nope. I decided that I want to challenge myself as a dancer (woah that felt cool to say...lol) and branch out into different styles of dance, starting with KRUMP. Now you may be asking yourself "Why krump? What the heck is it anyways?" and I would totally understand where you're coming from. Krump is probally the furthest thing from contemporary and is the craziest dance style out there, which is exactly why I wanted to learn. That and I'm practically surrounded by it!
See to me krump is not just a dance style. It's a fight, a tremendous display of both passion and love (for God that is). It's a powerful alternative to praising God rather than singing or praying. Krump has the power to completely intoxicate you with an overwhelming feeling of perserverance against the many attacks of the enemy. When I watch someone krump, I see someone who's both praising God while silencing the attacks of the enemy. This is exactly why I wanted to krump. (I hope that my elaborate descriptions made some lick of sense)
I know that krump is not going to be easy, even though it looks like it should. There are many components that go into it. You don't just go up there pretending to have a seizure, which is how most some somewhat simple-minded people see krump. I should know because I was one of them. But after recieving my first lesson/labbing for the first time with my big hommie aka teacher TERREL (insert shoutout here), I realized that there was a lot that I'm going to have to learn. But I'm up for it! It's going to be a long way off until you see me in the middle of a session with all eyes on me, but until then I'll be in the shadows during sessions @ 143 perfecting my skillz.
Until next time,
Kid Heave (btw that's my krump name)
P.S. watch some of these vids and just pretend that the people krumping are me







(excuse the french)

For The Moment...

So I decided to start a new thing called "For The Moment..." which will be a couple of things that I'm into for the moment...I'll do it every so often....enjoy

Me.

I have to work on myself.
For the past couple of weeks I have been more obedient with having quiet time.(Quiet time equals spending time to talk/listen to God.) A lot of the things that I've been hearing from Him have been amazingly awesome. I've learned that I need to be more patient with the things that I want. I have to have faith in God and all that He says He will do/has for me. But in my last quiet time, I got that I need to be more focused on myself. Now this to me was really good advice because lately I've been crushing on someone and most of my thoughts have been about her. I understood why God was telling me to do this so I had no problem with it. But I guess I didn't realize how serious God was about this. Today I learned that my crush likes someone else. I'm not that type to chance after people so I've decided to let the crush go. While this maybe sad (go ahead and insert your "awwwww"'s here), I'm not that upset. It maybe because I'm used to things happening like this. Or because I didn't have that much faith regarding this. But whatever the reason, I know that God made this happen for a reason. I'm happy because now I get to grow in a way that I probably wouldn't have if I was always thinking about my crush. Now I get to work on me, which has always been something that I have said but never really got around to doing. Right now, however, seems like the perfect time. School life has been great. My relationship with Dad has been awesome. Social life = check. The thing I could work on is my style though, lol. I really want to start being more fresh. (I can literally feel you judging me) But its cool. I'm just being honest.
I look forward to my continual growth. Next time you see me I'll be one fresh kid, who just so happens to have a strong faith, love in/for God.
'Til Next Time...
STay ORganized.

Φλόγα.

Fire is life. This is a phrase that is used so much to the point where it is almost a cliche. But what does it actually mean? Taken literally this phrase makes sense. Fire is used to decontaminate water, cook food, and provide warmth. All there of which are essential to sustain one's life. We need clean water, food, and warmth/shelter if we want in order to survive. "Fire is Life" also has a figurative/spiritual meaning to it. Lately my fire has been out. My fire for everything really, not just spiritual. My fire for, not only God but, my fire to overcome my struggles, my fire to maintain/strengthen my close friendships, my fire to clean my room (!), they've all been out lately. There's this vision that just came into my head that can illustrate what I'm going through. A person is holding a lit candle. There's always wind blowing the flame but it never goes out because the person's hand is covering it. However the person keeps getting distracted and he drops they drop their hand. The flame goes out. My life's been so distracted that I haven't been giving time to those things that should have priority in my life. Every time I go to light the candle that is my life/spirit the wind just knocks it right out. My hand is never there. It's funny because as I'm writing this I keep getting new images and answers from God. I got that even though my hand my not be there, His will always be there. I just have to find faith in myself that the flame won't go out this time. It has gone out so much that I've come to expect the flame to die as soon as i lit the candle. But the things that I've witnessed this week are examples of how its important for me to continue to have faith in every thing that I do. I have to light the flame. Wow. Honestly the only real thing that I've kind of been on fire for is dance. I talked about my love for dance before but I have to talk about it again. How can I say this? Hmmmm....I FREAKING LOVE IT! It's such a blessing in my life. Recently I've decided to take my dancing a little further. Krump. This is the equivalent to fire, speaking of fire. The passion one must have is astronomical. I respect everything about this style of dance. It's the personification of how I want to live my life. All things happen for a reason, right? So the fact that joining a fam and learning how to krump at this moment in my life has to be from God. The time in my life when I feel my flame has gone out, just happens to be the same time I join a fam? Wow. Haha. God's a funny dude. I look forward to the fire to come back. If you ask me, I'm ready.
Φλόγα- Greek word meaning Fire.

Listen.

I've been having a hard time listening to God about something that He's been telling me for awhile now. What He's been telling me to do just seems so awkward to me. But sometimes you just have to do what God wants you to do no matter what because He always has your best interest at heart. I pray that He gives me the strength and courage to do what He's telling me to do. All I can do is trust that it will be better for me. 

Ashlie 'Buttface' Pruitt

Welp, what can I say I love this girl! She is easily the best person in the world and I'm so glad to have her in my life. I first met her when I was a tutor. My tutee wasn't in school that day so I decided to say hi to my friend Anne whose tutor was Ashlie. Even though we both went to the same church and youth group I didn't know her that well because I wasn't that involved with the church. This all changed when I started to know her more. One day I told her I was interested in dance and the next thing I knew I was dancing with Rami, not knowing a thing about dance but I was there. From the start she told me I was good but I didn't believe her. But apparently she was right because Rami thought I was good too. (And if you know Rami you would know that this was an awesome compliment) As time grew on we grew more and more closer, always being mistaken for being together but nope it wasnt like that. We were always just really close friends even calling each other bro/sis. But I was the LITTLE bro because she was older than me. Whatever! Our junior year we were together all the time because most of our classes were together and I can honestly say that I had the best times ever!!!! I will never forget the times we had playing around in study, Ms. Shah's class, and let's not forget MR. HUIE!!!!! ahhhhhh the best!!!!

Even though we're close we never really have deep moments. One time though during the retreat we did this appreciation thing. She told me that I was her best guy friend she had. What can I say I was touched. I think we got even closer after that.

WE EVEN WENT TO PROM TOGETHER!! Again good times!! LMAO

I will love this girl and I will always love her. I hope she is always in my life no matter what!!!

<3 <3 <3

LETS GO

I'm bacccccccccck!! lol I'm sure none of you missed my blog posts but it's cool. A lot has gone on since I've been gone so this post will just be a recap.
To start off I've grown a lot lately, spiritually and physically(?), [I didn't just want to write spiritually lol]. Mostly spiritually though. My relationship with God has grown tremendously. I now feel on fire for God and His love and I don't care who sees or knows. Before I didn't really feel like I was on fire for His love. The kind of fire that I would see in other kids at Rev143 was something I desperately wanted but I just didn't know how to obtain it. I would get to the point where I would feel so down when I got to Rev because I wanted so badly to be like those who I saw had that fire. Needless to say I was jealous. Recently I did a week fast from technology and social media, and from that I was able to learn so much about myself (seven different levels...yea I know kinda weird but hey that's what God gave me). After this fast I, and a lot of other people, have seen this huge growth, and I'm so excited. I love it when God answers pray. (I mean, who doesn't?)
Because of this growth, I was able to get something else from God that I thought I would never get: I'm ready for a relationship. I made this promise to myself, which God never made me break (the reason why my last two 'experiences' didn't work out). The promise was that I never wanted to be in a relationship if I was still dealing with my struggle because I cared to much about the other person, whoever they might be, to hurt them. I had rushed to get into a relationship twice before, even though I knew I wasn't ready, but God wasn't going to let me break my promise so they both didn't work out. At the time I was really upset, but looking back on it now I'm glad God was able to stop me from doing something incredibly stupid.
Now that I've grown more God told me, while I was doing "quiet time" (that's in quotes because it was really the couple minutes of me laying in bed before I knocked out lol), that I was ready to go that extra step and have a relationship. Now you would think that I would be extremely excited but I wasn't all that much because I didn't want to go through relationship drama. So I've decided to give all that to God. I want Him to be in charge of my steps relationship-wise. So for now I'm just focusing on having DOPE friendships and if God wants anything to go further He'll make it so, if not then I'm not going to sweat it. This is probably one of the best decisions I've made because there's so less drama involved and it's great. (Anyone reading this should take notes....lol)
In terms of style, I feel like I'm maturing. With college right around the corner, I've decided to be a little more sophisticated and grown-up this school year, again style wise. I've even starting reading a "grown-up" magazine, GQ. (insert jokes here __________) but I don't care I like that magazine. Hey maybe I could write for it one day. That would be great. (You listening Jesus?)
Speaking of college, I've been confused.....until I prayed. I got that I should look into Gordon, so I did and I loved it. I really feel that it's for me. I really want to stay in God's presence, and here I would be able to do that. Abroad studies and missions? Sign me up. I pray that I will receive the scholarship and I hope you guys will pray for me too. Don't worry I'll return the favor. :)
My life's been looking up lately and I just really pray that everything will continue to look up. I love God with ALL MY HEART and I look forward to what he has for me in the future. Until next time,

Stay Awesomesauce.
PS enjoy the song.....I've been obsessed with her lately.