...And they just keep coming

Dictionary.com describes an insecurity as:
1. lack of confidence or assurance; self-doubt
2. Not sure or certain; doubtful
3. Not firm or fixed; unsteady

As I get deeper and deeper into this relationship with God, I find that, ironically, I'm faced with these annoyances. An insecurity is a tricky thing to overcome. It seems like as soon as you begin to rid yourself of one, the enemy wants to bring up 4 more, kind of like acne (another common insecurity). Now the questions come. Does she notice me? Why am I so fat? Am I even good enough? Things that you never really had a problem with start to become HUGE road blocks on your walk to Christ. Soon the enemy begins to use these insecurities as reins to curve your life dangerously off course, and the next thing you know your sitting at rock bottom, even lower than you were before. This makes it seem as though trying to get over the main road block in your life is useless if the enemy is going to throw more at you as soon as you try.

This is now the scenario that I find myself facing. As I make my way over this HUGE wall, that has been there for years, I face many more annoyances. The common analogy that I use to describe my life/Christian walk is a track race, (the 400 for all those who know a thing or two about track). For the first 300m, I'm fine. Breathing right, focused on the goal. But right before I get to the last 100m, there's this HUGE brick wall. Now one of two things happen when I get to this wall. Either I'll stop and contemplate going around/over/through it but end up fearing it and turn around, or I'll just run up to it and immediately turn around and start over again. I've been doing these two things for years, but now it actually looks like I'll be able to get through this wall and reach my goal. However a new question/obstacle is introduced. Now that I'm almost through this wall, random insecurities want to show up and try to stop me from completing the last 100m. It's as if the enemy himself is in the audience throwing popcorn, candy, and any other trash item, distracting me from my goal.

Will there ever be an end? I need God to come through and help me finish my race. I need Him to act as security and eject the enemy from the stands. All I need is positivity. Not insecurity.